Friday, January 15, 2010

Becoming content... what a hard task!

At my job I come in contact with a lot of people through out the week. Some of the people I see are going through the same struggles I am, some are lost and don't really know what direction to go, and some just inspire me. But as I go through my daily life I realize how many times I am not content with what I have.

I feel like a really blessed girl, I have an awesome family (like my ADORABLE nephews in this picture) that I am really close to, I have a pretty good job, I am been able to acheive many of my education goals and I have a wonderful boyfriend. Yet I still want more.... which I guess is a double edge sword... wanting more keeps me motivated to achieve more, but it also has me wanting the biggest and best of everything. And being kind of a gadget freak makes it really hard for me to control myself at times.

Not being content is a scary thing... we easily get bored with something, so we go out on a quest to find something that gets our attention. This is true with all sorts of things. Think about it when your job gets tough how many times do you say "I'm ready to quit!" I realized this in myself when a co-worker got a new car... well who am I to want a new car. I heard myself tell her "I'm jealous." In the last 3 years I have had 3 different cars. I know that buying the new cars were out of my control (2 totaled Honda Civics) I have only had my current car since June and it's not like it is a crappy car. It's fairly new 2007, it's got lots of bells and whistles (navigation system, sunroof, keyless entry/start, hands free phone calling, etc).... so why do I envy someone's new car. I know I am not alone, but it's scary that we have become a world where we feel like we always have to keep up with the Jones'.

I feel like there are plenty of areas in my life when I don't care what other people think. But I do find myself getting wrapped up in wanting the next best thing. So is there a cure for this? I sure hope so... lol




I Timothy 6:6-10 says:




"But godliness with contentment is great gain. For we brought nothing into the world, and we take nothing out of it. But if we have food and clothing, we will be content with that. People who want to get rich fall into temptation and a trap and into many foolish and harmful desires that plunge men into ruin and destruction. For the love of money is the root of all kinds of evil. Some people, eager for money, have wandered from the faith and pierced themselves with many griefs.




Ouch!! That verse sure hurts... it is so easy to get wrapped into what the world defines as sucess. So what is true sucess?? Sucess to me isn't going to work everyday and trying to make the most money, so you can buy the best stuff. I will feel sucessful if I can take part in helping change the lives of others. This could be hundreds of people or many just one. I know that God has a plan for me and my life and I hope that I live a life that will be pleasing in his eyes.




So hopefully I can remember why I choose to get into the counseling field and go into work with a better attitude that I have been lately. I hope that when my clients come to see me they feel that I truly care about their well being and don't feel like I am just trying to rush them in and out to get my time for the month. I hope they feel that I am making a difference.

Thursday, January 7, 2010

Coming back to the blog!!


Okay so it is 2010... lots of buzz about New Year's resolutions... so I was thinking tonight that I was going to try and be better at blogging... not that anyone is remotely interested in what I am doing... but it will be a good way for me to keep track of what I am doing and how I have changed in 2010... we will see next Jan I guess...


Well I have a lot of goals for myself for 2010... (probably because I am currently living with the rents and feel like I need ways to make myself productive... I will explain in a moment)


1. To build a better relationship with Christ.
2. To be a better girlfriend

3.I want to try and blog for the next year as a way of keeping up with my progress and changes in 2010.
4.I want to drop 30 more lbs (I have currently lost 9 lbs by doing WW)

5.I want to run a 5k

6. I want to become a decent photographer (I recently bought a Cannon Rebel XS)
7. I want to put a dent in my current debt

8. I want to be a better relative and friend to those around me

9. I want to put a HUGE dent in my LPC hours

10. I want to do iTeach Texas and become a teacher... so I can become a school counselor

11. I want to be able to wear a swim suit and not be embarassed

12. I want to learn to be better at dealing with the unknown... aka my future


Pretty hefty list of goals for 2010... we will see how it pans out... why do I want to blog in 2010?? I don't really know... partly because I was inspired by the movie Julie and Julia... not that anyone will ever read this blog so maybe it is only for my own benefit... and partly b/c in WW they have a thing called the Traveling Journal and our leader said that on avg a member loses 4 lbs per week while having the journal. I guess I am hoping that keeping track of my goals throughout 2010 will hold me more accountable and thus help me achieve more things on the list. That is all for tonight, but there will be more to come!!